“life will be better in spring”

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It gives me butterflies when i view your profile cos' i knew that all i can see is you and her. Hais.







I can't always find the right words to express the way I feel, but I think thats' okay because i'd like to believe my love speaks for itself.


And for today, I feel so jealous. And that really hurts me. :'(



I can't help it. I can't help caring. I'm too weak to restrain myself from you. I can't help looking for you in a crowd. I can't help thinking of you in the middle of the night, day or anytime at all. I can't help wishing that you would love me, again. I can't help waiting until the moment we will talk again or doing other silly things together. I can't help wanting to be more than just friends. I can't help the way i love you... although i wish i could.



It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s funny but stupid how you want everything and nothing at the same time. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and when you want to move on but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back to how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different and they may never be the same. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

“I’d like to meet someone who wouldn’t give up on me. Someone who would always be there no matter what. Someone who I could tell all of my secrets to, and they would trust me enough and tell me theirs. Someone who wouldn’t care what I wear, or how I have my hair done. Someone who would call me every night just to hear my voice. Someone who would know me well enough to tell when I’m mad, sad or confused. Someone who wouldn’t like me just for the looks, but for my heart and my personality. Someone who wouldn’t just love, but who would be addicted to me. Someone who would never leave me clueless or alone. Someone who would always keep their promises and mean what they say. Someone who would look out for me. Someone who would never leave me broken. Someone who would be faithful to me. Someone who would be the one for me, and I’d be the one for them. Someone who would be my Romeo and I’ll be their Juliet.”



Tomorrow will be having religious exams. Luckily, i've studied. And, i don't know where to go after after one o'clock.. Maybe, i'm going to the place where we used to hang out when we meet up.

I dreamt I come your house. We didn't talk . We make our own business. Soon, you gave me a cute and lovely surprise. We hug. We look so happy together. And suddenly, i woke up. ):

My heart longs to tell you how I feel towards you. I wish I could tell you just how much you have touched me. Just how much you have taught me. Just how much you’ve made me happy. Just how when you hold me, my body tingles. Just how when you smile at me, it touches my heart in such a way that no one else can ever come close to. Just how the way you love me makes me want to be a better person. Just the way I want nothing more than to be able to hold you everyday of my life, and how that alone would be enough. There aren’t enough words in this world that can truly explain just how much I love you.







Q, STOP CALLING OR TEXTING ME! I WILL NEVER REPLY TO YOUR MSGES OR PICK UP YOUR PHONE CALLS. DAMN, YOU ARE SO FCUKING ANNOYING LAH DUMBFCUK!




I have religious class exams at 11. Damn, im so not ready for it although the topic is easy. Hope i can do it. after that, going to istanbul to buy new hairbands and clips. All of my hair acessories are gone. Maybe, going jaja's house to see that cute little boy. boo, i miss him a lot. K, bye.